Maya, just read this once... I'm not asking you for anything, no pressure, no expectations. Whatever you think is completely up to you.

I know that asking you to read this letter after everything that has happened between us may feel overwhelming or even unnecessary, but I need to express things that have been heavy on my heart. I want to start by acknowledging that everything that happened in the past—every mistake, every hurtful word—was part of a different chapter, and it is not the person I want to be today.

I am deeply guilty for the pain I caused you, and I can’t even begin to fully explain how regretful I am for the way I acted. I know I wounded your trust, and I am truly sorry for every word and action that made you feel disrespected or hurt. I now understand that some of my behavior was not justifiable, no matter the stress or frustration I was experiencing, and I take full responsibility for the damage I caused.

In the moments that I reached out, I might have seemed distant, cold, or angry. That part of me—those actions that I showed you—do not reflect my true feelings or my love for you. I acted out of frustration and thought I could solve everything quickly, not realizing all I was doing was pushing you further away. You didn’t deserve that, and I deeply apologize for hurting you in that way.

I want you to know how much I love you. This love is not just a fleeting feeling. It’s something that runs deep, that brings me to reflect on how I can be better for you and for us. There is no excuse for my actions, but I want you to understand that they weren’t a reflection of how much I love or care for you. I didn’t express it the way I should have, and for that, I’m truly sorry.

I know the road to rebuilding what we had will take time, and that’s a journey I am willing to embark on if you ever decide you want that too. But even if you never choose to trust me again, I will carry the lessons I’ve learned and carry the love I have for you with me. I want the best for you, in every way possible. Maya, I want you to know that moving forward, I will never, ever take your trust and love for granted again.

I’ve started making changes within myself, reflecting on what went wrong, and working on becoming a better person—not just for you, but for myself. Please know this: I will continue to respect your space, your feelings, and your needs. I love you, truly. I hope, one day, if you feel ready, we can heal together and rebuild—at your own pace, not mine. Until then, no matter what happens, my love for you remains.

I know my past actions—especially my impulsive, abusive words—have caused you deep hurt. I take full responsibility for that, and I understand why you feel that trust is lost. I’ve spent countless hours reflecting on my behavior, and I am committed to change—not just for the sake of our relationship, but for my own growth as a person.

True love isn’t about perfection; it’s about accepting each other’s imperfections and growing together. I know that if there had ever been even a small measure of love between us, it would have been built on mutual trust and understanding. I have always cared for you, and I’ve never intentionally tried to hurt you. The harsh words were born out of frustration, not malice.

I understand if you feel that my past mistakes have permanently tainted our connection. However, I sincerely believe that we can leave the past behind and build something better if we both allow ourselves to heal. I am working hard—through self-reflection, therapy, and consistent positive actions—to ensure that the anger that once hurt you never defines who I am again.

I’m not asking for an immediate reconciliation or to pressure you into giving me another chance. All I hope is that, with time, you might see my genuine efforts to change and feel safe enough to reconsider our bond. I respect your need for space and understand that healing takes time.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I remain committed to becoming a better person and hope that, one day, you might trust me enough to let our connection grow again.